The Mixed Tape

Pagi tadi, I was supposed to go the UTP's lake for Sukaneka. There were five of us, *supposedly. But since I tido lambat semalam, around 330am, I was unable to wake up in the morning. But what's worst is, my 'teammates' did tried to wake me up by calling my cell and knock my door and surely at the same time shouting my name over and over again! And guess what, I don't even realised all that! LOL! Memang tak sedar langsung! They told me they were knocking the door like it was going to break and kept shouting my name LOUDLY as hell and I didn't even heard them! HAHAHAHAHAH. I know I know I'm a bad girl! -.- But, I didn't planned for all that, I just tak sedar langsung. heheheh Sorrylaa babe! At 1030, the called my cell again and I picked up the phone,

Farah : "Dian, kitorg tgh makan kat V6 ni".
Me: "haa, kenapa tak kejut?"*whilst looking at the clock

And then I was WTF dah pukul 1030???? hahahahahahhaha.
Bila dorg dah balik barula cte how they've tried to wake me up. LOL I was laughing like hell when I knew it.
So, the conclusion, I am sooooo not a morning person. I can stay up all night with just listening to the musics but to wake up early in the morning is kind of a huge challenge for me heheheheh. Andd Imma SLEEPYHEAD! Trust me I'm good at it! hahahah.

10 june 2010 genap setahun Mummy pergi. And aku pun macam baru je nak completely believe in it. Frankly speaking, memang susahhh sangat sangat nak terima. But Allah has decides. Whatever it is, its FATED!


9 Jun 2009.
Dah malam2 tu Mummy call, macam biaselah, ble Mummy call je, sumeorg pun excited. berebut-rebut nak cakap. So I'm the one who picked up the phone, borak2 dgn Mummy macam biaselah Mummy tny pasal SPM sume. Pastu Mummy pun cakap dgn Ayong. Then turn aku balik, mase nak letak tu, tbe2 je Mummy cakap, "bye, take care, I LOVE YOU ALL. Mummy dah takleh selalu nak call sebab dah nak balik Msia dah, malas nak beli topup". Okay, what's weird in this conv is kenapa Mummy cakap I love you all, selalunye cakap I love you je. Tapi mase tu takdelah pelik, tapi Ayong ade cakap la, "kenapa Mummy tak cakap I love you kat Ayong?". huhu
huhu. So that was the LAST conversation between me and Mummy.


10 June 2010.
Sarah, Dila sume ajak kua g KLCC. And Idk why aku macam gila takde mood nak pegi. MEMANG PELIK GILA kott sbb dahla KLCC je. hmm. Then dlm pkul 11 lebih, abah g beli makanan for lunch. Balik2 je aku pun g lah sediakan makanan, tbe2 Abah dpt phone call dr no Mummy. Mase tu yang ade kat umah just Abah, Amani and me. Mase abah cakap kat telefon tu, aku dgr suara abah dah lain gle. Memang tak tentu arah sangat2. aku pun dah macam pelik dah, kenapa kenapa kenapa? bila abah hang up je, abah macam dah nak nanges, then abah pegang bahu aku, cakap "Nana, Mummy dah takde". aku pun menjerit sekuat hati. aku tak percaya. mase tu tengah pegang pinggan, habis aku lepas je pinggan tu, nasib baik plastik, takdelah pecah. Amani pun tercengang je. Tapi dia tak merengek. Amani senyap je tengok abah and aku tak tentu arah. Aku terus terduduk. Nak nangis tak terkeluar air mata sebab macam masih tak percaya. Then aku pun call number mummy using my phone, bila org angkat je aku trus tanye, " Mummy mane?????"  makcik tu pun jawab, "nana, bawak bersabar nana, Mummy dah takde". aku terus campak fon.terduduk dan menangis. abah terus peluk. pastu abah pun telefon ayong, angah and apat untuk balik immediately. everything happen so sudden. macam takde petanda langsung. mummy sihat walafiat je. masa tu, just tunggu beberapa hari je flight mami nak balik Malaysia for good and the other reason is sebab aku nak amik spm tahun tu. Tapi sebelum Mummy balik Msia tu, Mummy nak buat umrah dulu. Bila tanya the person yang found out Mummy dah tak ada tu, dia cakap, "Mummy terbaring atas katil pegang dada, beg terbukak, tengah packing". sangat pilu mendengarnya.  Mummy meninggal sebab heart attack. sebelum ni memg Mummy pernah kena once, and itupun like more than ten years ago, and kali ni, mummy was all alone in her room, takda siapa pun yg boleh tolong. Saat tu la mami menghembuskan nafas terakhir. tapi muka Mummy tenang je. Sangat berseri. huhu. Aku menangis je sepanjang hari, bila dah stop kejap, then bila sembahyang, aku menangis, bace Quran nangis, bila ddk sorg2 kejap pun menangis. dua minggu berturut2 sampai lah jenazah Mummy sampai. sepanjang perjalanan nak mengambil jenazah Mummy dkt tempat Kargo LCCT tu aku menangis, yelahh, aku teringat mase dulu2 bila Mummy balik Msia, sepanjang otw ke KLIA tu kitorg akan berebut rebut siapa yang nampak Mummy dulu. Tapi, mase tu, kitorg pegi sebab nak amik jenazah. Aku takleh tahan air mata ni dr terus mengalir. Angah apat abah sume try pujuk. Bila nampak je keranda jenazah, lagi lahh laju je air mata mengalir. sepanjang naik kereta jenazah nak balik ke ampang pun nangis je masa baca yassin tu.


Aku skip sekolah dekat sebulan jugak lah. tunggu jenazah dah 2 minggu, lepas dah kebumi tu aku demam pulak. and macam tak ready lg nak balik sekolah. bila dah balik tu pun everynight asyk menangis je. petang2 pun sama. pegi sekolah pun mata merah je.


hmm, aku tengok wajah mami for the last time tu, mami punya muka sangat2 bersih. macam tenang sangat2. walaupun tak dapat cium mami buat kali terakhir, takpelah sbb everything happens for a reason. Mummy dah buat banyak sangat pengorbanan untuk family. Allah sayang Mummy sebab tu Mummy pergi awal. Aku teringat mase Mummy balik Msia for the last time tu, masa tu aku ade HKSBP kat Sains Selangor, tiap kali ade free time je, abah akan amik aku balik rumah untuk makan. Mummy masak. Padahal masa tu mummy masak macam simple2 je ikan goreng and sayur soon tu, tapi aku rasa macam sedap gila. aku ingat lagi aku ade cakap kat Mmy, " eh kenapa Mummy masak ni macam sedap sangat ni?" mummy diam je. mase tu Mummy siap bubuhkan nasi untuk aku skali. Bila fikir2 balik, banyak sangat benda special jadi mase last Mummy balik tu, mummy macam bg kasih sayang yang tahlaa taktau la nk cakap macam mane. Kitorg adik beradik pun siap ade bg hadiah kat Mummy for her becoming birthday masa tu. huhu


Lastly, eventhough Mummy is not around, she'll always be in my heart all the time. I will always love you Mummy! Thank you so much for everything you've done. And thank God for giving me the greatest mother in the world. Only You know how much she'd sacrificed for all of us and moga Engkau tempatkan Mummy dikalangan org2 yang beriman. Al-fatihah

A BUNCH of thanks to these three magnificent players for their contributions to Chelsea Football Club. 

I left it for so long. And wayyy too much to write about. ngehehe I kept delaying to post something in this blog because.... aaaa. I don't know. Just because.

So, just like what's stated above, this post is gonna be about my NEW life.

Okay, let me start with my life in UTP. Ahaaa I bet all of you were informed that currently I'm continuing my studies in University Teknologi Petronas in Tronoh a.k.a Toronto, Perak Also Known As the Silver country ngeeheheheh. Actually I applied for scholarship for overseas studies from MARA. But then I just managed to get the scholarship for local studies only. Tapi nevermind lah kann, I'm very very very grateful to AT LEAST got the place as one of the scholars kann. Thank God :) When I first acknowledge that I'm not going to pursue my studies abroad, I felt a bit devastated because yeah you know how badly I wanted to further studies abroad kann, but then, when I arrived in UTP and day by day, I feel like it is lebih kurang je like I'm studying overseas in here. Seriously, bukan lah nak mcm brag ke ape ke kann, but it felt like that, perhaps because the people there, the students, the lecturers, most of them are internationals. But not from Europe laa, mcm from Sudan, Uzbekistan, Africa mcm tu lahh, aku pon tak reti nak eja nama country dorang. And memg most of the time kene speaking pun. In lectures pun all in English. not even a single Bahasa is being used because there were international students in the class. And it was not only in lectures, most of the students there pun memg speaking je. At first I was a bit shy lah nak speaking because you know lah a typical Malay mind yang mcm aaa you-know-what kann. But then it was all a normal thing there. Anddd English aku pun berterabur, kdg2 nak ckp tu terstuck jap sbb pke whats the word hehehehe.


Secondly, about le friends.
Aaaaa, when I arrived there, and the time during the registration and briefing, I am the ONLY girl from MARA scholars. And the rest 26 person is the GUYS! Guess how do I feel that day? Can I survive? aaaa. But luckily there was one indian girl from Petronas scholars who registered on the same day (Petronas scholars register a week earlier than MARA scholars, but she registered late due to some complications). So she's the only friend I got. huhu. On the second day, baru lah ade another one girl, which is my roommate, Emyy, which happen to be someone that I've met before. Syafiq's friend. But still, can you imagine the ratio of girls to guys? gila lah beza ya amat. Sepanjang orientasi tu, kitorg bertiga jelah perempuan. Nak g masjid pun akak faci kene amik kat hostel sbb mcm leceh nak jalan jauh2. eheheh. Special sikit.
Kat UTP ni, aku mcm FRIENDSICK gila babi lah, sbb mcm most of the students are excellent students. Camne ehh nak cakap, haaa, kan mcm just a few amount of us (MARA intake), and the rest are Petronas scholars, yang budak2 Petronas ni, dorg macam pandai gilaaa tau, sbb all of them are straights As students and mostly were from daily schools. Can you imagine how pandai they are? aaaa, and SETAHU aku lahh, yang MARA ni je mcm ade yg 8As and kitorg pun dapat UTP sebab tak dapat oversea, yg Petronas memg sume straight. And kat sini, kitorg dah bole choose nak amek course ape, and I'm taking Petroleum Engineering, Emyy amek Chemical Engineering, so we're in different class. Bile dalam lecture tu, aku rase macam down gilaa lah sebab tak dapat catch up what the lecturer were explaining about and the rest of the class pulak macam cepat gila pick up. And siap macam laju je jawab kalau lecturer bagi soalan. huhu. Lecturer pun macam keep saying "you're an excellent students, of course you can do it" and I was like !@#$%^&;*. I'm not that pandai laa, in fact, I depend too much on my friends back in high school, I asked Ziqah too much questions and I even borrow my friend's book as a reference to do my homeworks. Please don't give a high expectations on me. But I can't do anything other than work hard on it and try my very best to adapt with all of that.
Kat sane, aku macam tak ramai kawan pun. tahla, maybe I miss my RBs a LOT! I miss the laughs, I miss the lawaks, I miss the borak2, I miss to open my eyes in the morning and I see whether Ziqah or Sarah or Atai as the first person to start my day, I miss to pau Adila's stocks, I miss to lepak2 dekat dorm Tira, Fahani, Alissa, Ayu, Mel, Syera, Maul, Nabila, Shireen, Tqa B, Izzah, Amal, Hani, Fadh, KZ, Ain Miyok sume tu. I miss makan makanan mak epah bawak mase weekends, I miss to share everything with Emy, and the thing I missed the most is to lepak and spend my entire day with Amirah Arina! Oh gosh! I miss you guys a lot!!!!


And thirdly is about World Cup.
Aaaaaaaaa, I CAN'T WATCH ALL THE MATCHES IN UTP!!! wanna know why? BECAUSE THIS RICH UTP DOESN'T HAVE TVs WITH ASTRO!!!! And I don't even know where's the common room which is the place where we can watch TV. ishhhhh. MY DREAMS WERE ALL GONE. I thought dah habis sekolah ni, I don't have to miss any one of the football matches, but now CAN YOU BELIEVE IT I DON'T FUCKING GET THE CHANCE TO WATCH THE WORLD BEST FOOTBALL TOURNAMENT WHICH HAPPEN TO BE THE EVENT OF THE YEAR!!!! And its not once a year, IT HAPPEN ONCE IN FOUR YEARS!!!! arghhh tensionnnn!!!!! I don't even feel the heat of this world cup pun tau kat UTP. Dah balik rumah ni dapat tengok tv sume br ade rase nak yg this World Cup is going to start in just a FEW days! aarghhhh!!! I HATE THIS I HATE THIS I HATE THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So for the ones who's reading this, I hope you undertands how I feel and you can pujuk me by belanja me the JERSEYS heheheheh. Yang ciplak pon tak kesah cos AT LEAST I can wear it to class everyday so that I can feel the heat :)

Ape lagi ek nak tulis? tadi mase belum start writng punye lah aku imagine this post will be like panjang gle sampai korang penat nak bace. But I think that's all for now. Please pray that I will get many friends here and aku jadi cepat pick up skt mcm the rest of the students in UTP. huhu.